Have you ever had that experience when, you know you can do something because you’ve practiced it over and over in the mirror or in the privacy of your own mind. Then, when the moment of truth shows up, you freeze, fumble and totally loose your confidence.
Confidence is such an elusive thing for me. It’s something that I really, really have to work at. Where did I loose it? Did I ever have it? How can I make sure that my students have confidence to defend and advocate for themselves? These are all questions that I ask myself.
I play the french horn and recently had a rehearsal that I was SO ready to play. I had practiced my solos, the tricky intricate parts to the Beatles medley where the horn part is exposed and wonderful, and the high notes that tended to go sharp and sound pinched. In the practice room – WOW- it sounded like the Beatles themselves had gotten back together to play one last concert at our small college in Wyoming.
However, at rehearsal, I choked, I splatted and I sounded more like a beginning band student. ARG!! After rehearsal, I played it, perfect. So now my task was to go back to that practice room and work on ……. confidence.
This issue that I have caused me to reflect on the students that I teach in my classroom. Perhaps they suffer from lack of confidence, just like I do. Perhaps that’s why they those high stakes tests don’t always show their true abilities. Maybe I should should have them doing more practicing of self-confidence.